I pulled my shoe out of my closet and a spider crawled out and it made me think about all the unwanted creatures that have been in my rooms. I had a red polka dotted wall…because it was covered in ladybugs. I’ve had my share of flea infestations and GIGANTIC wolf spiders, not to mention ticks. Also I’ve had snakes under my bed and one wrapped around my bedpost, and…a mouse IN MY BED! I think that’s about all. So yeah, I TOTALLY live in the country. yuck!
Okay, so it’s been almost a year since my last post.
In the last year I got a job working at Wendy’s, I started school at Virginia Western, became an Aunt, Got a cell phone and a car, and…I think that’s about it. Today is the last day of classes for this Semester…only one week of finals and then out for the summer!!! 
Jeff is coming June 12th and I’m leaving on June 25th to go to California!!! I’ll be staying there until the middle of August, at which point I’ll come back for school. I’ll be working probably five days a week until I leave to save up some money.
After a year that’s all I really have to say.
In my opinion alcohol isn’t all bad. If you want to drink it for the taste that’s fine, as long as you don’t have too much of it. But I don’t think it should ever be drunk for the effect. I know, most people drink it just for the effect, but I don’t think they should. I know I’m just talking from what I’ve been taught and what I’ve seen and not from experience, but you don’t have to experience everything before you can come to a conclusion about it.
I’ve heard that “no girl under the age of 21 should be committed to one guy,” and many other comments about relationships which are not actually said to me, but are pointed directly at me, which I disagree with. The major idea that I disagree with is you can have lots of “loves” as long as you aren’t committed to or set on just one until you are older. Basically as long as you aren’t set on one, then whatever else is okay.
I was always taught that you should wait and the right one will come along in time, and when they do you’ll know it. I still believe that’s true. I don’t want to “kiss a lot of frogs,” because I don’t believe it’s right. I don’t want a lot of guys; I want a guy who hasn’t had a lot of girls, and I don’t think that a guy who hasn’t had a lot of girls himself because he’s waiting for the right one is going to want a girl who’s gone “guy hopping.”
When I was really young, I decided I was going to just wait until the right one came along. In my early teens (the age that most girls start liking guys), my dad started asking if I liked any guys. He asked me that for a couple years. My answer was always no, that I hadn’t found the right one, I knew that, and I just didn’t like any guys. I was determined.
In the summer of 2004, I met Jeff. He was cool, and I started to get to know him. He lived in CA, but I talked to him almost every day. For six months we talked, and at the end of that time, I felt that he was the one. He came back for a visit soon after, and shortly after that I was ready to say I would either marry Jeff or no one. I continued talking to him almost every day, and the more I got to know him the more confident I became that he was the right one. I didn’t tell him how I felt, but I just waited. In the summer of 2005, I told my dad how I felt about Jeff, and he told me it’s totally normal and okay to have those feelings…and that feelings are neither right or wrong, it’s just what you do with them that’s right or wrong.
Later that summer, Jeff came back to visit for six weeks. We spent a lot of time together, and I felt that maybe he liked me too. I still didn’t say anything, but just waited. I knew him pretty well…one of the few things I didn’t know though was whether he had a girlfriend or if he was interested in having one. I didn’t know anything about his relationships.
The more I got to know him, the more confident I felt that he also felt the same way about me, but I also feared that I would be wrong. One thing I feared (mostly because my dad said it some, but also because I was just unsure of how he felt) was that he would one day tell me that he had found the girl he was going to marry. In February of 2006 I was talking to Jeff and he said… “this girl, I found out that she likes me, like that, and I don’t know what to do with it.” I feared that this was the time that I wanted least, the time when he tells me he found a girl. About a week after he told me about her he said that he decided what to do and he told her that he couldn’t be what she wanted, they could be friends, but nothing more.
When he was unsure about how to respond to this girl I knew that it had to mean that he didn’t feel the same way about me as I did about him…if he had he would have just told her no. But I still felt like he was the one, so I continued waiting, without telling him how I felt. I didn’t want the way I felt to determine how he felt, I wanted him to want me not because I wanted him, but because he really wanted me. If he didn’t then it wasn’t meant to be. So I waited. Then in the summer of 2006 he let me know how he felt, and I did the same for him. We’ve been in a relationship ever since.
I’m going to marry Jeff! I know at least a few people who think Jeff is the greatest guy they know (he is) and many who think Jeff and I are good for each other, and that we are meant to be together. I’m not going to dump him and look at other guys for anyones sake. I’ve seen several people very close to me get hurt in relationships, or get hurt because of multiple relationships or “loves.” I’m not going to do it!
Yesterday I went to the DMV to take the road test to try to get my drivers license. I was nervous, but I was going to do it…we got in the car, left the parking lot, and onto a side street. The first turn I had to make was between two barrels, not a big deal, we drove around in a big circle and on our way back in we went past the barrels instead of between them, which got me thinking…when went back past them I looked at them and thought “we went between those before why are we passing them and not going between them” I tried figuring it out and eventually did. My total attention was on those barrels. We got back in the parking lot and I parked and the lady said “you did a really good job, but I noticed on your way back in you missed the stop sign, which is an immidiate fail”…I totally didn’t see it, they told me where it was…it was on a post coming out of one of the barrels that I had all of my attention on, how I didn’t notice it I will never know. The lady said I was one of the better drivers and that I was the third person so far that day who had missed that stop sign.
Today I went back to the DMV and drove with a different person and DIDN’T miss the stop sign…the lady asked who taught me to drive and when I said my mom she said “she did a really good job” …SOOOOOOO I now have my drivers license…with an M! So I can now legally drive a car or motorcycle all by myself! I’M SOOOOOOO excited! Oh! and I also registered to vote. :-p
Jess and Joe are still making comments about me not being capable of driving…but I’m feeling good cause two of the DMV people said I was one of their better drivers! 
A good man is hard to find, or so I’ve heard. I don’t “know” very many guys, but I watch them, and I believe that it would be hard for me to find anyone like Jeff, and I think others would agree with me there. Guys like Jeff are few and far between.
If I was looking for a guy, it would be hard to find one who was quiet and had peace. Someone who is supportive, loyal, giving, caring, committed, honest, responsible, and selfless, who enjoys doing the things I do, who wants to get married, and have kids, and home school. Someone who can tolerate a girl who is quiet and boring most of the time and is loud and obnoxious the rest of the time, someone who can handle me reading my Arthur books, just for fun. Who won’t think I’m crazy for liking (and wanting) kids. Basically, someone who can tolerate a girl who has mental problems. :-p
Jeff is at peace pretty much all the time; it doesn’t really matter what is going on around him. He’s a quiet person, most of the time, like me. He doesn’t really get loud and obnoxious; he has a quiet spirit. He is there for me, ready to support me whenever I need. It doesn’t matter how big or small of a problem I have. It doesn’t matter what I need–Jeff is willing to give it to me, whether that’s a shoulder to cry on, money, or just someone to talk to…he’s there! He’s very trustworthy, if he says he’s going to do something, he will.
He’s a very committed person…I’ve seen it in his work and what he does there, in his school, and what he chooses to do with his time. I’ve also seen it in the way he treats me, interacts with me, and the way he interacts with others. He is also responsible, and he’s the most selfless person I know; you can ask most people who know him and they will tell you that. He’s not a little kid, and he’s not going to hurt me. I honestly believe that.
JEFF’S HERE!!! 
WAHOOOOOOOOO!!! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT!!! HE CAME FOR MY BIRTHDAY…HE’S HERE TILL MONDAY EVENING!
I spent a little over three hours this morning working at Eco Friendly Foods packaging sausage. The job was fine but I couldn’t work there; I couldn’t stand the smell in the room where they keep all the meat. The meat was fine it just smelled like…well, raw meat. :-\ it was nasty. The only problem with what we did today was the fact that it was cold…but now I’m at Jason’s and I’m not cold! So everything is good!
~Courtney
It’s WAY toooo cold here! I don’t like cold! I want to go somewhere warmer…duh! I can’t seem to stay warm.
Okay so I don’t really have anything interesting going on here, which is why I was writing about being cold. I’m at math class again. I feel like I should post every once in a while but I can’t ever seem to find anything good to say. So, I have resorted to rambling. :-\
Oh! we’re going to keep my baby every week day from Feb.15 through the end uf Feb. from 6:30AM-7PM! Which will be cool! I think.
~Courtney